Entries for March, 2005
"what we do, does not define us...
what defines us is how well we do it."
minove ni sir allan yung piano lessons ko ng 3-4pm. it sucks but okei lang.
jeff lost his phone yesterday. told me he got robbed. tskk. and to think we were just talking about his phone the day before yesterday. he told me he was going to sell his phone and buy if not iPod, maybe p900. i told him not to buy p900 cause im gonna get it from him and kill him afterwards. teehihi. .. but then he loses his phone. malas! oh yeah.. that's life.
material things are not for long. they're just here to satisfy our discontentment in life.
i think that's what last sunday's homily about. satisfaction. men are never contented with what they have.
hmm, maybe that's why there's science. i asked my friend who studies physics and a lot more science, if he still believes in God, if he still has the faith and religion. he said yes. and he told me more....
that not all scientists are atheists. they still do believe in God. and they also believe that the earth is formed from gas. they believe in both. weird eh? which one is true? both. i cant explain it the way he did, but let me say what i think i understand... though scientists find lots of ways to explain why things are there, they are all mesmerized by the ONE who has the power to create all of this things. GOD. The universe is one of God's masterpieces. Scientists do believe this.
at ako din..
God is good.. all the time!!
Written by hotchiqqa at 01:30 PM.
"When was the last time you did something for the first time?
hmm.. i was thinking about that last night.. and nothing got into my mind. i am completely lost. i haven't done anything new. learning a new instrument, piano, does not count since when i was younger i tried to learn to play flute.
hmmm... oh i get it. i stayed home instead of going out with my friends... does that qualify? nah, dont think so.
so what would it be?
maybe nothing.
oh, oh, oh, i entered in an online photo contest for fun and experience. yey. that's a little loser type but at least i could say one. tee hihi.
how bout you? when was the last time you did something for the first time?
uhm, maybe il go and do something new today.
Written by hotchiqqa at 09:38 AM.
i should be not here on my tummy blogging.
dapat nasa APC ako, nanonood ng Approj nila. Gone in Trenta Segundos. oh gosh, hmm, im thinking about what i could have been missing on that show. i guess nothing special..and my lazy ass doesn't want to go.
so we stayed at home, me and my lazy ass.
damn it. im trying to upload a group pic on friendster, but it wont work. gusto ko ilagay ung pic na yun kasi gsto ko ilagay sa captions na.. "Lick me good, beybehh!" pero ayaw nyaaaa. urgh!
nag-iingay ng eraserheads' songs yung kapitbahay namin.. "iba na ang iyong ngiti..nagbago na ang lahat sa'yo.. blah blah blah.. whatever happened to their band. i pity. they produce good beats but then they have to disband and form their own bands. suck-o. but i think more OPM bands are getting it on our local music industry. rock on pinoys!!
heard rivermaya's spirit song, "you'll be safe here"?? it's intro sounds like coldplay's "yellow", don't you think? listen hard, okei? so whacchu think??
a representative of a *record label wants to handle Fourth Phase!! oh my goshh.. hahaha. great luck! or may i say, pure ill-skills!! oh yeah beybeh.. i heard that person's also from a *radio station. coolness!! =)
* - i don't want to put the specific names cause i don't want to. duh. and maybe im wrong. or whatever.
{ mood } weird
Written by hotchiqqa at 02:40 PM.
the contest has started last friday. havent check the polls yet. nde pa din ako bumoboto.. teka, am i gonna vote me? hmm. panu kung mas may ibang maganda skin who deserves the vote? ah ewan.. for sure il be happy to get not less than 10votes. hihihi.
VOTE for your choice.. or ME[preferably!] at Miss Internet Phils lots of thanks!!! =) **Gracie Jamisola** teehihi.
A friend messaged me this URL I miss you daddy, 9/11 tragedy. It's a very sad and moving movie animation. you better check that out. thanks!
Rode MRT last friday. Still so far.. no gentleman has stood up for ladies and women like me. oh wait, i had one pala before. Then i saw this African foreigner, a man, standing up all the way when he got in. tapos 2 persons sitting infront of him took off na. so he gave the first seat to an old lady and have the second seat. but then a woman came in and he gave away his seat.
isa lang masasabe ko dyan. Buti pa yung mga hinde taga dito marunong magbigay respeto sa mga babae at nakakatanda. Tapos yung mga naturingang "Filipino men", eh mahimbing na mahimbing ang pagkakatulog sa kanikanilang upuan. Sabagay tulog sila, nde nila alam kung babae o lalake ba yung nasa harapan nila. Pero diba.. men should be more alert on what's happening around. Lalo na they're on a public transportation. They have to be alert for the ladies. right? tama.
One big salute for the African foreigner i rode the MRT with!!
Problema nga lang.... When we got off the MRT at taft station.. he started to flirt with this Filipina. Hahaha. Natawa nlng ako. Iba rin cguro tlga hanap nya. Ah ewan.
I can make myself look and think like a fool just because of a man.
fact stated.
ikaw ganun ka ba?
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:45 AM.
haha. good news.. good news from friends!!
went to mass yesterday afternoon with honey and jeff.
kaso nga lang late na ako nakabihis kaya di kami naka-attend ng maayus. we stayed outside at nagkulitan nlang. laugh trip. teehihi. 
stayed for dinner and a little more time at honey's place. went online and watched joshua and his friends play ball at the court. when got home, gave ad a ring to know bout the good news.. guess what?? they are booked to have gigs every week at greenhills.
whoopeee!! ad turned down the offer from the radio and record label person. i think their not yet ready for it, and he told me they would rather be handle by someone they personally know. he told me he's planning to enter muziklaban. hmm. he's not that sure about honey's abilities yet. yeah, me too. i mean he knows how to play but he's not that good yet. marami pa sablay si ney eh.. 
hayy.. i dunno how to encourage him more to practice and get better. and oh, btw, adler keeps on tellin me if i could play piano well na, he'll let me in their band.. like Dream Theater. he's fave band. haha. i wish i could play well. can't even imagine playing at the recital on march 19 
oh goshh..and i heard they got dates this saturday.. hahaha. adler, lance, joshua and ken. they'll be roxanne's friends partners at their HS prom. hihihi. but only last night, ken's date backed out. too sad. i think roxanne will find another date for ken. adler told me how hot and cute his date is. nyahahaha. nubatoh.. di nmn ako interesado sa babae. hay buhay. kinig nlng ako.. and his date's name is elizabeth. he calls her beth, kaso sabe ko ang panget nmn.. parang mejo matanda[no offense sa mga beth jan ha!opinion ko lang po toh..]..so sabe ko Liz nalang para mejo cutie and gurlie.. ayaw nya kasi may liz na daw shang crush.. ang ewan noh?hahaha. tpos sbe nmin beTH--ah nalang. ung emphasized yung THhhh. hahaha. ah ewan.. lugh trip lang sa phone kagabe.
slept late na because sound trip pako and still texting some friends. hi sherry!! haha.
anyways, nichichika ko lang si momy this morning. making kulit and lambing na bili nya ko bago phone. haha. and to watch movie later.. payag sha sa... BOTH! hehehe. im just so plain charminggg.. 
have to go. need to practice my PLs. laters.
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:52 AM.
Tagalog post langgg...
naiirita ako.. nacancel ung PLs ko for yesterday.. tapos dapat re-sched today.. tapos kung nde ko pa sha itxt nde ko pa malalaman na walang class. hay buhayy.. may mga older people pa rin tlgang pasaway..
iritado din ako simula pa nung monday. ang gulo kaso sa bahay eh. isa pa yang nanay kong pasaway. pero ayus lang. pasaway na okei.. kumbaga.. cutely hyper.. kaiba sa annoyingly hyper.. ah ewan. hehehe.
tapos nalaman ko pa ung kasalanan ng kaibigan ko sa isa pa naming kaibigan. alam ko na mali yung ginawa nya.. pati na din ng iba samin sa barkada. ayoko itolerate yung ginawa nya. at ayoko din syang pagtakpan sa gf nyang kaibigan ko. nakakabad trip ung iba sa barkada namin na nde man lang tinama yung ginagawa nyang mali. hinayaan lang nila. hinde man lang nila inisip yung isa pa naming kaibigan. ... at kagabe sinabihan ako na wag nlng daw ako maingay o wag ko nlng daw ssbihin sa kaibigan namin kahit anu pang mangyari. nagalit ako. nde lang nmn siya ang kaibigan ko.. pati ung babae kaibigan ko.. at ayokong maging unfair sa kanya.. dahil ayaw kong maging unfair yung ibang tao sakin.
hay naku.. mga lalake tlga. sa huli't huli.. kelangan din malaman ang katotohanan. di ba? ang buong katotohanan.
Written by hotchiqqa at 05:30 PM.
pagkumain ka pala ng ice cream.. iinit pakiramdam mo? o bangag lang ako?
kumain kami knina ni honey ng ice cream. ang init kasi. pinahabol ko pa nga sa kanya ung mamang sorbetero ehhh. hahaha. naka-socks lang sha tapos suot nya house slippers ko. ahehe. ang saya. ill put up some pictures some time later. nakakatamad mag-upload eh.
masaya kanina...
pero war kami ngayun... hay buhay tlga nakaka-irita..
i sometimes wonder if i my mind works differently.. if my principles are lower than i think it is now.. would my life be the same? or how different would the past 18 years of my life be? and i kept askin myself at this moment... why my hell-damned headphones ain't working?!!
talagang pinag-tritripan lang talaga siguro ako ngayung araw ni Lord. nice one God!.. but nevertheless.. i love you and will still follow your only will.
kahapon galing ako OB. i missed my friends there. good they were all there.. oh except for atchie.. i do miss her. 
ang kulit ni Mac. haha. i call him Shrek. ang sama ko noh? eh kasi nmn the first time na nakita ko sha up-close and kinukulit pa nya ko.. so iritado mode at maldita mode ako nun.. kaya madali ako makakita ng panlait sa isang tao.. eh siya nakita ko.. at siya na din yung nangungulit skin.. hahaha. nagulat nlng ako ng nasigaw ko sa iba naming kasama na... "wahahaha. kamukha ni mac si shrek!!" tapos.. timing pa.. paglabas namin ng school.. may stall sa may kookabar na nagpplay ng SHREK!! hahahaha.
anyways, so un nga.. makulit sha.. pero i miss yung mga ganung kulit.. so nice to be with good old friends. i needed that one too. im just so dead bored at home. ill give them back a visit on friday. cause i have to pass a reconsideration letter and my clearance for the first sem. hahaha. kelangan palang ipasa yun sa office. eh malay ko ba. tinago ko for remembrance. haha. buti nalang nde ko tinapon. enggkkk. hahaha.
hay naku. wala nakong mapost na mabuti.. nga pla.. i already have 19 votes. hehe. okei na yun. at least 19 people cares and supports. kahit yung iba mukhang sapilitan lang. SALAMAT pa din mga kaibigan!
i wanna eat twister fries. tag me, ill treat you!! im depress.. i wanna spend moneyyyy!! 
tata for now.
{ mood } off
Written by hotchiqqa at 08:28 PM.
i feel this....
rantingggggg..........
Written by hotchiqqa at 09:14 AM.
nakakatuwa.. at nakakalungkot.. andami nagpopost ng mga entries about graduating.. their grad balls.. and grad bLUES!!..
honestly, never had those kind of grad blues back in my highschool days.. even in my gradeschool's.. because i believe.. that whatever happens or how much distance we take away from each other.. its the memories and the bond we had together that matters.. and im happy for everyone because they'll be going somewhere where they would build up their future lives.
and another point to dig in about me.. i didnt graduate on the same school i spent most of my life at.. so it didnt bother me leaving the school.. what bothered me is that i could have done better on my last year for my future's sake. or what if i had stayed for another year..the last year.. but i guess i'll never regret the decision i made.
i do miss my friends.. all of them. i miss myself with my friends. the way i was. no, i didnt change.. maybe i just got better.. or i say worse.
saka.. namimiss ko na din mag-school uniform.. the skirt and the white socks-black shoes.. and i miss my sundo.. my school bus.. paperchats.. and everything that goes with highschool. nah, i dont miss exams and paperworks. hahahaha.
{ music } these Days - Bamboo
Written by hotchiqqa at 04:27 PM.
went underground partyin last night. much much fun.
teehihi. post up my tag. A single text at 2am in the morning is all that it takes to have fun. hahahaha.
Morning, went to mom's office then shopped around Galeria for awhile, then went to obmc to pass something and hangout with the girls. They were having their final exam on one of their subjects and i was actually sitting in doing Kat's requirements. Im such a good friend. haha. Then went around theatermall on jazz's opel. i love her car, though its yellow. nyahaha. i wanted to stay at her pad but i have to get goin to apc cause im gonna meet up some friends. i texted King 2am of friday that i wanna go out and get drunk! haha. anywhere will do, even at sanlo's park. haha. sheer desperadoes just to get drunk! amp. then some other friends came along.. ate at Big Grill, drunk some..and some more. and a little bit of.. yeah.. tskk. im a bad girl. well, i guess im just taking my time off. just wanna have fun and be worry free about other things. a lot of other stuffs. then tanj got a text that their friends will go partyin at Basement. woohoo!! more partyyy!! dancin dancin dancin!! drinkkksss.. and a little bit of... yeah yeah! hahaha. A guy was dancin beside me. pinansin ko naman kahit papano, pero dude, panget tlga. Ang sama ko. pero eto lang masasabe ko.. marunong siya sumayaw kaya nagpaturo ako konti. But then i got a little over his dancin, so i left him. haha. After partyin for like hours, ate at Mcdo tapos drop off a friend at Ortigas. Got home at past 5am. At shempre hinde ako pinagalitan kasi si king kasama ko. teehihi. :p
Friendster has got a new feature. bLog and aLbum. Nice. Im trying it. But im gonna stick here at Tabulas. Loyal ako eh. kuno. hahaha.
Im out. Ang gulo ko na mag-isip eh. Nga pala, my katext ko si *uhm yesterday till night. wala lang. teehihi.
* - big ZIP IT stuff. hehe. might cause some issues with someone.
i want coffee. hmmm.
{ music } Light Years - Bamboo
{ mood } crappy
Written by hotchiqqa at 02:10 PM.
uhm, im trying to work on my layout, but it won't work. so nagtanong nalang ako sa friend ko. ahehehe. ang hirap magmarunong eh. baka masira lang tong tabs ko. thanks bonah and sherry!!
my mind's blank today.. basta ang alam ko, may uwing pasalubong si adler skin from bora!! at may inuman mamaya. i am a self-proclaimed drinker. but ive never been that TOO drunk. konti lang, tipsy. strong ako eh. hahaha. labo.
i hope my new layout suits me. i like background music by Richard Marx "Right Here Waiting For You" I would love to play that in piano in the coming time.
ttfn diary.
Written by hotchiqqa at 04:01 PM.
i am currently composing a song. i dont know how it will turn out. im gonna have to accompany it with piano. nyahahaha. ang feeling ko grabe!! as if marunong. there's no harm in trying. right?
while im feeling a little musical.. here's a song im wanting to shout at someone... and no, its not my boyfriend.
Since You've Been Gone - Kelly C.
Here's the thing
we started out friends
it was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah, Yeah
since you've been gone
You dedicated,
you took the time
Wasn't long 'till i called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
is how i picture me with you
that's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you
Now i get
what i want
Since You've Been Gone
How can i put it?
you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone
How come i never hear you say,
"I just wanna be with you"
I guess you never felt that way
But since you've been gone
I Can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since You've Been Gone
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again...
Since You've Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you (Thanks to you)
Now I get..
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you (Thanks to you)
Noe I get (Now I get)
You shoukd know (You should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since You've Been Gone
Since You've Been Gone
I really like her songs.
{ music } Since Youve Been Gone - Kelly C.
{ book } a text message
{ mood } nauseated
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:49 PM.
"It's just too easy to be stubborn for the sake of being the one in control." -is this even right? can you explain it to me why and why not? thanks.
" Writing, however, gives voice to your thoughts without pressure or interaction. It's a clear path to speaking your mind when you're ready. There's time to think before saying. " -AMEN to that. i hope i can write better.. to express myself better. im trying to express myself through a song.. wish it works.
can anyone tell me any good sidelines or hobbies that i can make money out of it? teehihi. anyone please?
the girl i was talkin about from my last entry.. with the "th-a" name.. ad told me she doesn't like me.. AND WHO CARES? DUH-NUH-AH! actually someone does care.. ad.. im his friend and, well, she's, uhm.. one of his interests. oh oh oh.. and take note, im a CHILDHOOD friend. which weighs more? hmm.. we'll see.. teka, mali ata.. basta RIGHT weighs more. diba? panget naman kasi talaga yung pinakita sakin nung babae and i have the right to say na PANGET yun at MALI. may right ako na ijudge siya dahil sa actions na pinakita niya.. tama o mali? TAMA! ... ngayun malalaman ko nalang na ayaw niya sakin without basing some real facts about me. eh ako nga tong nag-approach pa sa kanila nung una to meet them.. and guess what she gave me.. a blank face with eyebrows raised. or maybe im exaggerating a little bit pero you'll understand me kung nakita mo itsura niya.. and sa sinabe na rin sakin ng kaibigan ko.. ayaw niya sakin.. so judgemental.. tsk tsk..
eto lang masasabe ko.. i, for one, believe that first impressions never last.. pero di ba naman... it wouldn't harm anyone if you give a good first impression to somebody. right?
teka sabe ko i dont care.. hmm.. masyado lang ako napaisip ng malakas. but what do you think? am i wrong? correct me if it pleases you.. applause if im right.
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WHAT: Concert/Bands Show/Party
WHO: Fourth Phase, Mayonnaise, Monkeyspank, Severo, Upharmadown and 13 Needles.
WHEN: 2nd of April 2005, Saturday at 9pm.
WHERE: Greenhills Bridgeway, Along Mcdonalds and Italianni's
WHY: to see me! haha. nah im just kidding. my friends are going to be there.. Fourth Phase! with special participation of Raymond from The Barpins! oh yeah!! and of course, a plus.. you'll get to see me. teehihi!
***Please please please.. watch and support local music!! rock on pinoys!!
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im craving for cookies.. i want chips delight.. bite size!! yum yum yum.. and i want some melon milk to go with it. teehihihi.
My sister passed at UP-D. way to go sis. I don't know yet when her graduation is. But i dont think i would be going. im not interested. I am proud of er.. but for me its just a waste of time.. she even thinks the same. and i dont think she wants to go through all the ceremonies. or maybe she does.. i just dont. whatever.
this freaking colds isnt leaving me. i drank meds and lots of water.. or so i think.. but i still have it. ugh.. i cant go on jogging every morning. maybe my colds got worse when honey and i went jogging last monday morning. sheesh. i didnt want to go jogging talaga. walking nalang sana. but honey is so hyped up, i dont want to disappoint him and ruin his morning so went running with him even if after one round ill stop and eat and drink water and sit and just watch him finish one-two rounds before i can get back to jog. FYI, i only eat biscuit so not to make you think what did i jog for? while jogging i was sneezing and blowing my head off.. oh no, i meant my nose. and when i got home my nose was in pain, my head goes with it too. took shower and slept for another 10hours. when i got up, have to entertain the piano fixer[i dont know what they are called!] and honey to arrived to go have our 2nd facial check-up, then watched movie, The Pacifier. Vin Diesel is totally a hottie and cute. the kids were all adorable esp. the RED BABY! hahaha. gone window shopping after and went straight home.
and you know what... i still had the colds but i enjoyed the day much much.
{ music } bro playing ps and its 12:35am!!
{ book } sister's college acceptance form from UP.
{ mood } nothing
Written by hotchiqqa at 12:37 AM.
di ko feel maki"penitensya" o maglakad ng malayo sa ilalim ng araw para masabing ako ay isang Katoliko.
kaplastikan.
ayaw na ayaw ko talaga.. sapilitan sa lahat ng bagay. lalong lalo na pangungumpisal at pagsisimba. pag ayoko.. AYOKO. simpleng ayoko. isa lang explanation ko dun.. ayokong humarap na plastik sa Diyos. Ayokong gawin ang isang bagay para sa Diyos na pinilit lamang ako ng iba. kaya pde bah... makuha sana yung iba sa simpleng AYOKO at sa salitang KAPLASTIKAN.
teka.. nde ako galit.
pero baka manood kami ni honey ng play ng living way mamaya. mukhang masaya kasi yun eh. labo.
nagjogging daw ako kuno kaninang umaga. nyahahaha. eh nakipagkulitan lang ako kay honey. ansaya. tulakan lang ang nangyari. panalo ako!!
teka.. wala na kwenta sinasabe ko. babay. epekto cguro ng holy week. hmm. labo.
{ book } friendster messages
{ show } bro playing ps2
{ mood } okay
Written by hotchiqqa at 03:58 PM.
dati.. 3x a day ako kung magpost ng entry dito sa tabulas.. masmadami pa sa bilang kung ilang beses ako magtutbras sa isang araw.. normal para sakin yung ganun.. kadiri siguro sayu.. wala ako pake.. who cares?
ngayun.. once a day nalang ako kung magpost ng entry dito sa tabs ko.. minsan nde pa.. ang malala pa dyan.. 3x a day nako magtutbras ngayun.. ohmygollay.. minsan 4x pa.. pa pa pa pa pa... ohmygollay. weird!and again.. who cares?
ansel: well i care. joke.. oo nga. who cares??
me: oh kmsta?
ansel: well nobody cares.. nobody should care.. eto. trying to make the ROM i got to work..
me: i dont care if nobody cares.. or if somebody cares..
ansel: kasi i believe in the individual. kaya dapat ang mentality natin ay lahat ay walang pake sayo kasi isa kang indibidual na may sariling isip. diba?
me: tama!
teka.. tama nga ba? ehehehe. hmmm.. who cares?
ang sarap sabihin.. lalo na pagfeel na feel mo... WHO CARES? nubatoh para akong galit sa mundo.. eh pakelam mo?
sa mga nakabasa ng entry ko about dun sa gig: para sa inyung kaalaman.. friday na po tutugtog ang mga kaibigan ko. nde ko alam kung ganun pa din ang line up nung mga kasama nilang banda. pero for sure.. pagpumunta kayu.. malalaman nyu. hehe.
hmm.. sometimes.. SORRY is ENOUGH.. pero sabe ko nga.. minsan HINDE.
{ music } the silence of the night
{ book } crap emails
{ show } nadah...
{ mood } distressed
Written by hotchiqqa at 12:08 AM.
