Entries for December, 2005
"and i cant make it go away, no i cant stand the pain..how could this happen to me? i made my mistakes, i got nowhere to run, the night goes on, cause im fading away, im sick of this life, i just want to scream.. how could this happen to me?..." "everybody's screamin, i tried to make a sound, but no one hears me, im slippin off the edge, im hanging by a thread, i want to start this over again, so itried to go unto a time when nothing matters, and i cant explain and i cant embrace the things that i have done, no i cant... how could this happen to me?"
if i made mistakes on the lyrics, im sorry, but im so feeling this song right now..
a lot has happened within a few days.. sick, and happy, tears and smiles.. and through those times i know who my true friends are.. and others who i thought didnt care.. cared and made me smile. thanks friends. i know life doesnt revolve around one person.. its my mistake.. in my journey, i might have loved one person more that you guys, but my love for you never fades, it never will. \
ZEDY and KRISH.. my two sisters.. you put back the faith in me, sa friendship natin.. i know that after years, i can sit and think of the two of you, and il just smile. kasi alam ko i have good friends like you girls.. and shmpre pretty girls.. u are both have special parts in my life..
JOSE, RAMBO, and TIN.. for puttin up with me the other night. for the headache i gave you that night.. im sorry. but thanks for being so concern and for showing me that things should be thought twice, and asking questions.. making kulit, can even save a life. [sa di makagets, sorry nalang kayu!] thanks for not giving up at me that dreadful night. JOSE, u owe me my AD-P haha.
KING.. for the tequila sunrise, and for tellin me i dont need those sh!ts..
ARIANE. for comforting me BEFORE, and until now sa mga crying moments ko.. sorry mommy, iyakin talga ako. now you know how much i love a person.. from boys before to my kiko ngayun, you know everything. no secrets, and no lies. u know my flaws, and you know kung san ako mahina.. but u understood me and gave me a helping hand. you are the best. i can never replace you with anyone. the hugs and laughters last night.. you made me strong. thanks momy!
ARAKAKI.. tony!!happy birthday! haha. il never forget you my entire life.. you are the only person who made me smile despite of the events. sobrang touching yung sinabe mo, and that's what keeps me smiling more. you have my smile always. the best japanese guy ever! hahaha. arigato!
sa TROPA: kuya doy, kuya rj and gf, tobatz, ate eena, paula and jim, tim and gf, rhisa and aleck gwapo, arvee, princess, jolly and jeremy[puker!haha], van and kit, nestea[of course!].. thanks for the super fun times!!! tagaytay ule.. syang walng pics.. not too worry much pagkita kits ule, il bring a digicam.. so i can show the whole wide world web, who my real friends are.. the best people ever. gifts from God.
FRIENDS!!!sometimes, life's a joke, but you have to keep steady and brace yourself.. and through these journeys of ups and downs.. you have me! =)
EK! EK! EK! hahahaha.
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:24 AM.
i can do this.. be happy! 
spend the sunday afternoon with him last week.
monday - wednesday.. attended class. normal days. boring.. thursday - got to school late, haha. had a test with lj in earthsci. discussion, then went home. no classes on friday, food fair at OB. was textin paolo and zedy the whole time. met up with zed in manila for lunch, went back to tare to visit some former teachers. had a blast night with krish and zedy.. again! i thank God i have them. ate at spag factory.. yum yum. sarap sobraa. then nagKTV kami. hahaha suuuperr happy talga ako whenever im with them. syempre may serious talks and all, but i go worry free when im with them.
fell down yesterday so i had a sprain, mejo okay na ngaun. haha. everyone has a little bit of clumsiness. at least honey cared. then, pao texted me. haha kulet. miss our friendship. sbe nya, ngayun okay na. wala na daw kontra. its nice to talk with old friends and just reminisce the good times.. adobo w/ potato and catsup.. corned beef and all. hahaha. :p
the more i miss my honey. the more i realize that i never want to be with anyone else. that i do love him more than anybody. hay naku honey.. i love you so much.. arthur francis laurin. muah!!
like i said, with friends.. 20% less the pain..
Written by hotchiqqa at 12:47 PM.
let's say.. 60% less the pain..
he visited me the other night. sweet. i missed him so i hugged him tight. haaayy...
we had a litto psychological tests yesterday.. with colors, lines, signature, and some tests. it was quite fun. the coolest of all the teaching days i had with ms d for this school year. hahaha. fun fun fun.
before dismissal, pao textd me not to leave the school. nagyaya gimik with a couple of his friends. moomba, new manila is a great place. mejo expensive pero sarap ng food. treat nya. huwaw. hahaha. big time. jr and selina were very nice too. kinda weird lang si jr cause nantititig siya.. si selina, pretty and baet! cant wait to hangout with them again. pao accompanied me to makati pa. sweet. hahaha. gsto pa nga ata ako ihatid sa house, pero di na noh. i dont wanna cause any conflicts so okay na ung dun nalang.
today's kiko's gig at mayric's, i told him im not goin cause i got home late last night. but im still thinking. if i can get home early later, i might. but not really sure pa talaga. thinking....
Written by hotchiqqa at 10:59 AM.
Natapos na ang lahat
Dito pa rin ako
Hetong nakatulala
Sa mundo, sa mundo...
Di mo maiisip
Di mo makikita
Mga pangarap ko
Para sa'yo, para sa'yo...
Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..
Nariyan ka pa ba?
Di ko na madama
Kung merong madaraanan
Pasulong, pasulong...
Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..
Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig na lulan ng aking pinagtatanto
Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig ko
Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..
***hayyy. when i thought i got back up.. i came falling down fast.
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:15 AM.
