Entries for March, 2006

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Written by hotchiqqa at 01:56 PM.

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summer's a few blocks away.. few more turns and goodbye school! hahaha. cant wait...

when he gets back.. im never goin to leave his side.. FOR A MONTH! he'll be mine the whole summer.. i super miss him..

"oooh baby i love your way..

everyday..

i wanna be with you night and day.."

finally i got to talk to him this morning.. he called me.. my wake up call.. hehe if he didnt call me.. another bad day for me and ill end up getting to school LATE. good thing he did.. and im just happy. even with the mess at school.. w/e hehehehe. im just so happy to hear his voice..what i really need to get through a day.

i was talkin to enzo last night. told me he has plans of having his summer break over here in PI.. and that he's comin over this april to attend his ate's graduation. too bad his school didnt allow him.. and his mom didnt allow him to go back by may or july.. pero at least persistent syang makaipon to get back here.. super miss ko na un noh! pero mas miss ko si chicoy.. the best thing ever for me.. enzo even promised me a date to bora!! whoopee!! ehehehehe.. pero sympre hinde naman pwede yun.. so goodluck nalang. hahaha.

cant wait to see my chicoy again.. damn this depression is killing me.. 21 more days to go and andito na sya ule!! yey!! lapit na un.. right? im starting a countdown.. haaayy..

21 more days...

Written by hotchiqqa at 04:45 PM.

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hahaha. super LUPET. made by my sis SHERRY.. =)

been posting it up to my friends' pages at friendster. hahahaha. do you find it cool..?? well, I DO!! ahahaha.

Written by hotchiqqa at 10:06 AM.

2 justified.

there's nothing that i want from you.. but you alone.. i dont need expensive things to feel that you love me.. i dont care if you can give me what i want or not.. all im asking is for you to be here by my side for the rest of my life.. i love you baby.

you.. coming back home safe.. is enough pasalubong for me.

Written by hotchiqqa at 08:46 AM.

2 justified.

15 days left..

2 weeks left and its my vacation already from school!! whooopeee!!

2 weeks left and HE's BACK!! yey!! i miss my baby so much..

beach beach beach.. sand, beer, party, more sand, more beer, and party langgg.. haha :p

i love you baby!

Written by hotchiqqa at 12:25 AM.

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its all like that.. now i believe my speech.

at least i havent fallen further inlove.. then my heart would be crashed.. enough na yun.. i have been experiencing the same old thing.. i need a break.. from a lot of things.

ang init. i want to rain. i want to cry. i want to cry out in the rain.. i want to drink.

love can give.. and love can take away.

Written by hotchiqqa at 07:55 PM.

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12 more days. yipee.. super lapit na talga!

i really dont get what pao means.. why is he dedicating that song to me? not that i do care if he feels something for me.. oh wait, i do care cause he's my friend.. but beyond that, none. can somebody tell me what that song means?...

"Thinkin' of you makes me so sad
And thinking of you makes me so damn crazy

What if I try to run to you
What if I try everything

What if I run
What if I hide
Would you care about me
Would you ask me how I feel"

i dont get it really.. cause he doesnt have to ask me those things.. i know for sure that i care for him, anytime of the day.. whatever happens.. and for reasons that we had something before is just enough for me to care for him.. and yes, i would be so glad to return the favor to him.. he was there when my world crashed beneath hell pa.. sobrang he was the only person who can make me smile.. and can make me stop crying.. he was there.. even after time passed us both.. he will always be special to me.. i hope he knows that.

he cared a lot for me.. same way that i do for him. always. no questions asked..

friends na kami ule ni jeb! yey.. hehehe he forgave.. super tagal na nun nohhh.. and im so happy..

Written by hotchiqqa at 08:24 PM.

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i got a lot of masks to wear.. im real, and some times fake.. but last night, i wasnt faking it.. the way i acted.. that was me.. THAT IS ME. the way i talked.. the way i cried.. the way i laughed.. the way i think.. how i reacted to things.. THAT IS ALL ME... BARENAKED. it was just a dare.. nothing will hurt.. i hope.. not for anyone.. i did it for the dare and for the FUN my friends were askin. and i WASNT FAKING IT, when i really wanted to puke with the IDEA. it was terrible. past terrifies me.. tsk weirdo. im no fool, but im no smarty pants.. i just do what ever i think is right. but last night wasnt right. but i had fun.. im happy. im fine with everyone.. i got to talk to people ive been missing for so long.. im just so glad now. im FLYING HIGH. fcking high. hahahaha. they all loved the wine.. i assume. :p thanks to pao!:p now i know where i belong.. and im missing my man.. chicoy, i love you. i realized i was never lost.. just got blinded by the hurt.. and its all gone now.. im still me.. on this same old road.. LIFE.

Written by hotchiqqa at 12:37 PM.

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i thought i did the right thing to correct my mistake. im no man.. i dont know how you guys deal with such crazy things..

i wish i was a man.. hmm.. panu kaya kayo nakakalusot sa mga ganitong bagay? tskk u guys rock.

hahaha. weird.. dati kinamumuhian ko guys doing such things to their gf's or their partners.. ngayun i actually adore them how they deal with it.. kung panu kayu nakakalusot.. so whatever.. naguguluhan ako sa sinasabe ko.. lasing pa ata ako.

o well at least i didnt lie.. i didnt hide anything at all.. and i took that risk, so im ready for whatever consequences there are ahead..

talkin to peter, i could stress out everything.. and he would understand.. he wants to bring back the old me.. i think i am lost.. he's right.. i dnt know where to go back eh.. nasa maling line daw ako.. i thought the same thing too..

my friends are too important for me.. sobrang importante.. i cry because i miss them.. i cry because after all they were with me all the way, had not felt it for sometime.. but i know now that they were there all this time.. just got blinded by hurt and anger.. i didnt see them reaching out..

i love my chicoy.. but sa mga nangyari sa past, i want to love myself first.. do whatever makes me happy.. with out worrying about other people's feelings towards my actions.. but my feelings towards baby are all true.. no lie and no pretentions.. im just learning to prioritize myself first NOW before anyone else.. i might sound selfish, yes.. but this is what i want now. i want to be happy, do whatever i want..

..at uminom nanaman ako kagabe.. ang sarap ng buhay.. thanks to my old good time friends.. at feeling ko, last na naming pagkikita yun.. o well at least i had fun..

crapp.. pukes all over my room, have to get rid of it.. laters

Written by hotchiqqa at 10:54 AM.

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you have your own opinion.. and i have my own.. keep it to yourself darling.. i dont need it.

5 days nalang and he's back na!! yey yey yey!! =) that is if the extension isnt approve by PAL. grrrr. praying..

taking a little time off.. i have this story book to finish.. but im tired and lazy.. not in the mood really. grrrr. what's wrong with me? and i have to pass this tom morning.. 9am! tskk..

woohooo summer's here!! i have some shopping to do. tskk

Written by hotchiqqa at 11:45 PM.

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