Entries for May, 2006
"i couldnt face another night home alone... sunlight oh sunlight.. my laughter, my lover, my life.."
i miss you baby.
i deserve another chance. but does he? do we? i dont know. im so confused. but one thing im sure.. i love this guy and i want to stick with him for the rest of my life..
im tired of getting along with one person and being too attached knowing he/she will leave after awhile. im sick..
i cant take goodbyes.. ill have a heart attack if i do. morbid.
went swimming yesterday with some friends.. r.a, paula and romyr. under the storm. yea yea.. cool huh? went drinkin after.. just like the night before.. that's how i actually spell my life now.. B E E R. kind of fun really but sometimes i do get tired of the same routine.. class - inuman - house - inuman - house same everyday.. fun yea but you know i get bored with it sometime.
after this storm.. i hope my head clears out soon.. the same way sunlight clears the sky.. there's always a rainbow at the end, right? who is my rainbow? my guiding light?.. or maybe i should stop askin WHO but askin WHAT and WHY.. or HOW.
entirely.. im doomed.. or so i think.
Written by hotchiqqa at 04:34 PM.
i meet men who usually are best described as "fast and FURIOUS".. i dont know why, but these are the type of men ive met for past months. tsk.. terrible..
i had my midterm exam yesterday for my summer class. it was easy. period.
hahaha
then went to jazz's place with bianca, funny cause jazz went to the gym.. so niransack namin yung house ni jazz. hahaha.
met up with sam, bianx's bf, and 2 of his friends alvin and his ate cristina. they were very nice. esp ate tina. 
cool girl. sam is pretty nice too, and alvin.. hmm.. he's quiet and weird and i dont know.. serious, i guess.
i went home around 3am this morning. slept til lunch time. im goin out again later with bianx.. so yeah. i guess i must be getting ready. laters.
Written by hotchiqqa at 01:20 PM.
im having our cyber inuman session with jazz, drew, jerwin and jeff's missing.. tsk. haha im sorry that bianx is missing all of this. hahaha. boohoo.. =)
just got home from festi.. we watched x-men. i didnt like it. sorry haha.
chix dropped by here at 5 this morning. i gave him my letter. we talked a little. fought AGAIN. then talked.. then fought AGAIN. tapos i asked him to leave. then he left. then he called me on the phone to tell me he doesnt want to talk to anymore. he hates me daw and all that. he said he's about to throw his phone sa edsa, he doesnt care bout his phone or sim card. and he was saying goodbye. i just said that if that's what he wants, il gladly give it to him.. after he shouted that i and the rest of the fcking world can go to hell, i actually thought he threw his phone in edsa. the line went off. and i couldnt contact him anymore.
..so i let it be for a few hours. tried to call his phone around 9.. it rang!! hahahaha. then i called him sa landline.. at least i know his safe at home na.. then i let him rest na.. i said my sorry's for upsetting him. told me we'll talk some other time. so yeah i said goodbye.. then a little after that.. he called my phone AGAIn. so we talked more.. he started to go sweet again on me. i dont know what's wrong with him. telling me he loves me and all. that he's so inlove with me right now.
im confused.
enough bout that.
summer classes are over. no more marina nights with my girlfriends and drinking buddies. tskkk.. anyway, 2 weeks left and classes will start soon. so yeah.. im gona miss them but not for long.
Written by hotchiqqa at 01:17 AM.
