Entries for June, 2008
Mahirap maglibing ng friend. At the end of the day, all I can think of is... "Iiwan na natin sya dyan? Ayaw ko pa. Samahan natin sya."
but of course, we can't, well I chose not to.. Kasi katakot sa cemetery after dark. Pero panu na friend ko? Mahirap. Mahirap mag let go nang taong alam mong dapat matagal pang andito kasama natin.
But life goes on... for us who's left behind.. I'll let him live through my memories nalang. I'll keep you alive JohnPaul. In orange skies, and through our friends who laughed with us from the day we became friends until the day we laid you to rest.
Mamimiss ka namin sobra. =) Ingat ka dyan.
{ mood } contemplative
Written by hotchiqqa at 09:13 AM. Filed under Self-Musing.
...to talk about between old friends who you haven't been with for a long time is... *drumroll please* LOVE LIFE. People are so predictable, they love to pry on cheeky details about you on that topic. It's not my habit to ask or be curious on someone's dating issues, much more on their sexcapades, unless they open it up to me first. I'm not even the type who tells TOO MUCH in DETAIL whatever goes on in my own heart stories, unless it was a fucking bad break up that nobody can stop me from spilling it out.. or when I'm drunk and alcohol becomes a truth serum...
How much of someone else's love stories are interesting? When is it okay to pry and not? And why do most of us just love to know these things about our friends? Is it just for "something to talk about"? or ours isn't really that interesting so we fish on somebody else's? ..or maybe you don't have IT at all and others' love anecdotes are the only things that gives you butterfly in your stomach? one word: Pathetic. (Pero masaya mangtrip ng lovelife ng iba.. Siguro yun lang ang reason ko for giving the tiniest bit of attention on special cases of sex/love "chorvas". Tulad nung sa girls na sinasabe si cigarette-girl. Hehehe.)
Love Life? I got none of it. And I'm down proud about it. And it isn't really hard or shameful for me to say I have none, that I am SINGLE. Love doesn't make my world go around. Money does. (Ahahaha. Totoo.) and good friends too.
Sure, I get lonely sometimes, and it becomes really hard. But I guess that's the price you pay for figuring out what you really want. For now, what I want.. is to grow and learn as much as I can about myself. Being single means I had enough on being the girl who makes a guy perfect for the next girl.
Lenny Kravitz' album title is just too perfect for any explanation.. "It is time for a LOVE Revolution." I don't say that love is a senseless topic.. but I'm merely suggesting that we have to consider LOVE as a sensible topic and not just another juicy detail on someone that we can dish anytime.
{ music } LOVE love LOVE - Lenny Kravitz
{ mood } amused
Written by hotchiqqa at 08:58 PM. Filed under Sweet Love.
Not that I am ordinary but the whole world is quite unimaginative and boring.
There isn't a single thing in it that interests me anymore.
And I wish I could leave it all behind.
Right now, I am still guilty of doing things before that lead my life
to this. Boring and systematically made for purposelessness and blank
and boring. It would get a little interesting with booze and unwanted
side trips of vices and worthless stuff technology made for this era.
I have been like a suspect who ran away and hid because I was crazy
scared for whatever even though i did nothing.. And I swear with the
last breath that I have that I didn't do anything wrong. (Nothing
serious naman.=p) Moving on.. feeling on.. I am still guilty of
something. And that guilt has been hunting me for years.. I have been
blaming the other side, and not totally realized that I have been
blaming myself, and that I was angry of what I did.
And yes, I have finally accepted that I was wrong.. and I want to get
it over with. And I want to believe I already have. Time has punished
me already, and it wouldn't be fair with it if I keep wasting time
punishing myself over and over. I am now asking all the forces of the
world to give me my last streak of punishment so I can actually put a
closure on this. Just for the last time. Then I know for sure it is
truly over. Sadistic much? =p
As for right now, ze world has been a little bit quiet and boring. No
drama, no quick and sudden changes, nothing that tickles my interest or
any part of my body.
That made me thinking, what's there for me in life?
Aren't we all wondering that? =)
{ music } Try - Nelly Furtado
{ mood } indescribable
Written by hotchiqqa at 06:26 PM. Filed under Self-Musing.
Hear Ye! Hear Ye! I've got some good news to you all! I am grinning while typing this.. =D
PINOY GAMING WORLD:
For Pinoys... by Pinoys
To all gamers and techie people, be hold! Here's a new blog site that will cater Pinoy game enthusiasts and techies alike.
".. we aim to deliver useful, relevant, and accurate information about games (online or offline) and the technology that drives them."
Their main goal is to actually to keep you, fellow game lovers, young and "young enough", with up to date and current gaming news and the technology that drives them. From the old school game consoles that we enjoyed much as when we were kids to those rapid growing online games that keep most of up playing 'til wee hours of the night, they have it all laid out for you in just one click away.
"...Gaming and Technology..
For Pinoys... by Pinoys."
Go on, don't be shy now, check out Pinoy Gaming World. Why don't you check it out first, and then you can play your heart out... with loaded information. Not bad, right? =)
{ mood } accomplished
Written by hotchiqqa at 10:42 PM.
It has been a habit since we've been partners in school to go out and shop after we get our shy pays. We can actually used it all up in one mall visit. There's food, clothes, "unnecessary" things and more food tripping.
Then we decided to use some of our money to buy books. More deserving of our pays, I think. Thank God there's Book Sale. You can find books as low as Ph30.00, like I did. I bought two hard bound books, one is for Php70.00 - Little Doors by Paul Di Filippo and After Dachau by Daniel Quinn for only Php30.00. A hundred bucks for two hard bound-used books (they're clearly looked unused to me) is such a good deal to pass up.
I'm a one sitting reader. If and only if, I find the book really really interesting. There are stories that I can't stop reading, and would only leave the book open to go to the bathroom or eat. And After Dachau is one of those worthy books for my time. My hundred buck purchase didn't disappoint me at all. After Dachau is sucha good read if you're into Reincarnation and English History. It is fictional and at the same time very informative on historical matters that dated back during 1920's.
Reincarnation is just another belief that anybody have the freedom to choose to believe or not. It's not wrong to have an open mind and ears on that matter, as long as your principles aren't bothered at all. Topics like this catches my attention time and time again. Strangers can share anecdotes and short stories about ghosts, past lives, fairies and supersticious things anytime with me, wide-eyed and attentive.
One thing is for sure, Reincarnation may look like it is the main theme of the book, but that's just not the case. Political and historical points were given more emphasis on the storyline than that of reincarnation. According to Daniel Quinn, this book's theme is...
"...the social constructedness of history and of what we take to be the foundations of social reality."
He hopes that he will inspire people to realize the connections of the actions of our yesterday's generations and the consequences of today's rapid progress as humans. He wrote this book not to encourage the possibility of Reincarnation but to tell people the need to change course with human's relationship to its environment.
With regards to reincarnation, here's a fact: a person's body does not constitute who they are. It's what you do, what you make of yourself, your past, present and future.
{ mood } contemplative
Written by hotchiqqa at 03:33 PM.
I notice that when my brother plays RPGs (Role Playing Games), he always have pieces of paper beside him like a guide book of some sort. I didn't mind this at all not unless they are scattered around our living room. Sometimes I even use them as scratch in writing important call messages or doodling. *Sorry Kuya.*
Never knew what these notes contain until my sister who loves to play as well, asks me to look for "walkthroughs" in games she plays. Looked it up in google, and there I learned that walkthroughs are another form of "cheating". And we all know that cheating is bad. Walkthroughs contains everything about the game. You can find there the characters, the levels/chapters, the secret levels or objects (that sometimes are no use at all,I've observed), how to use a weapon or an object, how to kill an opponent, or just go through the game without missing any detail. If you're into perfecting details, I'll bet you will love walkthroughs.
But is it bad when you do it in video games? Like life would really matter on it? Cheating in games, cheating in life?
Having to grow up with two brothers, I am used to seeing different game consoles and games, which I haven't imagined that there are such. My favorite video games would be racing, sports, or SIMS.. nothing serious and violent. I don't even get why people love to play games that has to kill aliens, or stealing or bullying. Although I find "Bully" pretty cool sometimes. *hehe*
Video games are for passing time as well as entertainment. The usual games I need don't need cheating or walkthroughs. Like what I have mentioned I only enjoy playing car games and sports. Other games just completely bore me. I play because I got nothing else much important or sensible to do at home, or it's because the PS2 is ignored by the kuyas and a usual change in my routine at home. You can bet that I 'try' to play PS2 only once a month. More than that, you can be sure, something's wrong with me. It's not a normal thing to do for me to stay infront of the tv and play whole day. I am that lazy to move control buttons the entire day. Hahahaha. Yes, I'm serious.
What I'm trying to say is that I think games are made to be enjoyed and not a thing to be serious about that you actually have to use cheating in order to finish it. What's the fun in it if use a guide sheet to run through (or walk through, whatever) in playing? You play because you get entertained and excited on the next level or next villain/opponent/alien or whatever!!
Bottom line: To really enjoy something, do it right. No cheating at all. Just like LIFE. You just go through with it without using guide books or walkthroughs. There are no pieces of paper you can peek at to know what's the next move. If there is, what's there to live for in the future? Right?
For walkthroughs(hehe) and more video/online games information, you can visit: Pinoy Gaming World. Hahahahahaha. Sorry, I just got to.
Written by hotchiqqa at 08:35 PM. Filed under Twisted Minds.
This isn't just a favor, but this is laying out the truth (in my opinion, of course)... Yes people, here's my own list of the Top Emerging Influential Blogs in 2008.
- Brian Gorell's "The Not-So-Talented DJ Montano" - Being an alien from this country, an Australian, he was able to flare up different emotions of the Filipino society in regards to the rich and elite community of our country. Enough said.
- Ed Arevalo's "Music Picks" - I've got to say, music makes the world go round. He has the latest information about your most listened music to the upcoming music events here in the Philippines.
- Krysta Torres' "KURT Next Door" - To actually understand what I am saying, please do check out her site. It is a site. Right Kimmy? Hahahaha.
- The Geek Revolution - Music. Movies. Wresting shows. Whatever that floats their boat, they will write it. I think they are the new breed of Geeks.
- Cecile Maris' "Ang Batang Palaboy" - A college student who has a lot of things to say in this world. Opinionated a good way of course. Ces is a nice and intellectual girl. Period.
- PGW - Pinoy Gaming World - All about game and latest technology about it. Video games, Online Games, and even events, get informed through Pinoy Gaming World.
- - 10. To be updated soon.
For more information:
do I need to say that once you nominate your favorite blogs, you also get a chance to WIN $100?
This project aims to identify new and emerging blogs that are making an impact to its readers in 2008.
Who can join?
- Any blogger in the world. Only one entry per blogger.
- Blog or website owner profile and e-mail is accessible or visible online.
To join this effort, please do the following:
* Write a blog post and pick your choice of 10 (or less) emerging influential blogs.
- Any blog in the world can be picked.
You can update the same post entry up to July 26. However, please inform us of any changes.
o Old blogs who move to a new domain are disqualified
o Blogs who remove their archives just to fit in the cut-off date are disqualified.
* Include a link to this post to help spread the word and encourage others to participate.
* Post a comment and let us know about your entry. Only one entry per blogger. Cut-off date and time for submission of entries is on July 26, Saturday, 5:00 pm (GMT+9:30). Afterwards, submission of comments in this page shall be closed.
more details at www.influentialblogger.net
{ mood } cheerful
Written by hotchiqqa at 10:56 AM. Filed under Self-Musing.
Saguijo's 4th Year Anniversary
There will be a 2-day celebration for one of the known music bars here in the Metro. Saguijo Bar will turn 4 this June 27(Friday) and June 28(Saturday), and heaps of our local bands are going to celebrate and rock the celebration with everyone for sure.
Including bands are: Sandwich, Imago, Faspitch, Razorback, Greyhoundz, Urbandub and a lot lot more!!
For more information, click here.
Hope to see you there people! ROCK'n'ROLL beybeh!! =D
{ mood } ecstatic
Written by hotchiqqa at 11:11 AM. Filed under Twisted Minds.
