Entries for November, 2008

Hypocrisy aside, it would be lying if I bluntly say that I am a nice girl. (I see a few nods now.. okay a lot of nods and shouting from everyone.) I can honestly say I have done a lot of ugly deeds and I am not proud of it. God had stopped smiling over me for a long time. I felt like these words by Matt Wertz:

And I had enough of those stumbles.. I am going back to the one who made me. I will lose myself to the one who found me. Still setting aside pride and hypocrisy, I'd know I will still have fallbacks. I'd still make mistakes. But I know now to tell myself that I'm too good to fall apart again because of those mistakes. I will smile and I will live on...

I guess there's nothing anybody can throw at me now and still get hurt. I have sang my songs on my own.. lived the way I wanted it, bad things happened, mistakes were obvious, heartaches and pain scarred me... but I got out from all of it. I learned from it and I got myself back together.

I had been stuck. And the only thing left for me to do.. was to believe again. Thank God I did.

For the months that passed, I always sleep to dream, to ignore reality, and have my own safe world and stay asleep til the day I die. Lately, I can't even wait that long for the next day to come so I can live those dreams. Luck has been on my side lately. I know it wouldn't stay that way forever even if I wish it will but I'll make the most out of my life now... So I can look back and contentedly say I have live my life well and long enough to realize it.

{ music } Top of the World - Mandy Moore
{ mood } complacent

Written by hotchiqqa at 01:05 PM. Filed under Self-Musing.

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Roll of Successful Examinees in the L.E.T. - ELEMENTARY - All Regions
Held on SEPTEMBER 28, 2008
Released on NOVEMBER 15, 2008

8941 JAMISOLA, MARY GRACE SARMIENTO
16602 TIQUIA, KATRINA BLANCA TAN
17452 VILLANUEVA, RIA FAYE PADILLA

Congrats Faye and Kat!!! WE DID IT!! Hahaha in fairness, walang aral aral to Kat diba?? Ahahaha!! blow out nyo naman ako... hahaha!! =)

{ mood } accomplished

Written by hotchiqqa at 11:03 PM. Filed under I am a Teacher, Life is a dance floor., Self-Musing.

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